January 2012
6 posts
December 2011
5 posts
“I like people with depth, I like people with emotion. I like people with a...”
– Abbey Lee Kershaw (via impossiblelight)
36089) I'm a hideous creature. Inside and out.
November 2011
14 posts
1 tag
WatchHow I spend my days.
Things I suck at:
being attractive
being normal
being likeable
mathÂ
WatchLate night goonery.
WatchCover up
“My love for you shames me enough.”
Jealousy is just insecurity. But seeing her smiling face…
Who am I?
This girl who wakes up every day in worry. This one who beds with her fears. This girl who smiles in the face of dangers. This girl who chokes on every tear.
It’s been over 20 hours. Do you not worry about me? You know that my bravery is a mask, that I am fragile yet I pretend to be strong.
The least of your concern. Maybe I should be. Give me another reason to press onward without...
October 2011
3 posts
Withholding is lying, too. Shame and guilt are impossible for someone who smirks at their wrongdoings.
We are at the same place now, than we were 10 months ago. Relying on others to see each other. Not knowing when things will change.
September 2011
1 post
Self.
I need to clear my mind. I need to free myself. Take on one task. Complete task quickly and efficiently then take on another. Stop setting yourself up for failure. Take everything one day at a time.
July 2011
3 posts
Above all else I must remember that I am alone.
A month and a week left till our one year anniversary. One year “steady”.
I don’t feel as if anything will change anytime soon. I don’t feel as loved as I love. I don’t feel as needed as I need. it still feels unrequited, as all those years I hoped you’d come back to me.
None of this is me. Always pretending.
May 2011
1 post
March 2011
1 post
It's getting late.
Supposedly things get harder before they get better. I feel like I get more pessimistic by the hour.
I am getting crushed inside this shell. Too much of a coward to break through, to scared to change things about myself beyond the superficial.
I feel like I’m always waiting for you. Even after these long years I yearned for you, I still feel like everyone is more important. As stupid as...
January 2011
2 posts
Questions
People hide when they want to be found.
Push away the people who hate me, push even harder towards those that like me.
December 2010
5 posts
Why am I looking at pictures of you instead of being held by you right now?
Home is where the hatred is.
I never want to go back to you again.
1 tag
Empty.
I really want to see you, then I don’t want to see you. I don’t know why my heart is running away right now. But then in a seconds notice it is running back.
I told myself I wouldn’t call but then I did. I told myself I wouldn’t say anything else to you but then I did.
I know YOU don’t care for me, so please give me the strength not to call.
I know YOU will...
November 2010
3 posts
Bad, bad girl
No regrets. No pained heart.
I’m just doing what I have to.
October 2010
3 posts
My heart is uneasy. Not because I don’t trust you, because for some sick reason I do. But because I don’t know when or how I’ll see you again. Relying on others, feeling helpless myself, I hate it all.
September 2010
5 posts
