May 2007
6 posts
care, concern...
or just plain boredom. I really don’t know right now. I called you yesterday and you sort of blew me off saying you didn’t want to talk, which is ok since everyone gets those moods every once in a while I guess. (That mood doesn’t stop me, however, from actually talking to anyone though). You said you’d probably feel like to me in a day or two. I told you to rock that out...
better news.
he doesn’t want a relationship. which is good. ITS GREAT, actually. You’re a nice enough guy, but you can’t give me the attention I need. And your attitude bothers me. What I need most right now is friends anyway, so lets hope you make a better friend then you did a boyfriend. I got the job! So now I can waste money on trivial things again. now for the sordid details that...
good news and..?
Job interview Saturday. Cross fingers and toes, and hold it. Chuk IMed me today. We have not corresponded at all since I blew up at him in December. He wasn’t treating me the way I should be treated. He always wanted to argue, he was an overall negative aspect in my life so I let him go. Now he’s not living with his verbally abusive father anymore, and since maybe he’s not...
“Since I cannot die, I will bear a stone heart for the rest of my life as...”
– 白い部屋の二人
pride wouldn't let me dial
When you’re alone a lot, you forget what being lonely feels like—it’s like an item you’ve misplaced. But then when you fall in love, that feeling of loneliness comes back. Then you try and shut it away, and it goes off somewhere again. Am I comfortable in my misery?
本当に
I don’t know what I’m feeling right now. A little tired, a little drained, a bit lonely.
I feel as if it is time for a change. Usually when I have this sensation I do something to my hair or touch up my eyebrows or something small, superficial and overall insignificant to life. But those small insignificant things usually help. They usually help a whole lot. Enough to pacify me for...
