April 2008
26 posts
The stars in the sky look grouped together but in reality they are very far apart.
I was a slave to circumstance, there was nothing i could do.
I was myself without morals.
Begged you not to go.
Claimed you as my only hope and watched the floor as you retreated.
Full of doubts that I wish would turn to something concrete.
“I never comb my hair or make anything pretty. When people look too beautiful,...”
– Lou Doillon
“Everyday, everyday
Living my life like it’s over
Like it’s over...”
– aqualung / glimmer
I’ll be your resporator, I’ll be your parachute.
Distance
Everything seems far away. Nothing seems real. This is all a dream to me.
build my world around you
it feels like its getting harder and harder to breathe. jealousy that i never had. confidence that I glowed in. what wasn’t there exists, what existed before has faded. except love, which can be buried. however, it pointless… as it can always be unearthed.
this house
smells of secrets… this house smells of ghosts.
non stop and never ending
in any case, its all up to you if you can just show me just what you can do. somebody come and rescue me quick, or I’m gonna be the devil’s next pick.
Path ways
I am not lost because I don’t have a map. I am lost because I have no destination.
butterfly
how much can you change the outside, the superficial, without the inside changing? the basis is the same, right?
dry lettuce
I want to break out of this cocoon I’ve been in all my life, and become a butterfly.
already tasted.
I was really sort of emotional last night. I don’t know what the catalyst was but I really kept sinking deeper and deeper. When you bottle things up they are bound to come back out. In an explosion.
I need to convince myself that love is NOT like baseball. I can’t control this game as i wish.
not cute at all.
can’t get too upset about getting stood up from someone I barely know. its always those who say they dislike games, who are the referees of them!
Skin is thicker but it burns the same.
me: is it gay for a dude to know you sign as soon as you say what your bday is?
sis: depends, jason knew mine but his birthday is a few days after ours:x
me: he's a gemini, and the stars don't agree with goats being with bi-polars
I always thought that the word “awkward” pretty much personified itself. This feeling is making me sick. I’m 4 years older than him. I was graduating highschool when he was graduating middle school. Now I’m just going through the motions of life and not really knowing what to do with myself and he’s just fresh out of highschool! He seems to think that he has had...
If my heart keeps taking damage I am afraid it will turn black.
Chase the chance
But never make someone top priority when you aren’t theirs!
I hate what my love for you is making me become. Please find a new love.
The space between
I am stuck in this stupid situation.
